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Happy thanksgiving to all my American friends........

I'm so excited about this weekend.....The Manhunt.net World Tour.....

I'm so trying to figure out what to ware! I'm thinking I'll put on some new leather pants I got from the USA on Ebay...Joe Rocket moto cross pants....At bit hi in the waist department but hey I'll have my World Tour shirt on....A walking Bill Board is me..Yep....No issues there I'm at master a promotions and I love it....World domination is my future...LOL

But serious I'm kind of nervous even though I have been involved with many leather events this one is a big deal for me seen as I will be representing one of my most valued clients....It will be all good!. Look back here for many pics as I'll be out in force hanging with the DJ, snapping pics U wont find anywhere else!....No where but here.....I love it.....

5ive NightClub and Steve Ireson the GM have been nothing but my best supporters over the past years and last Friday was no exception....I took some of the World Tour T's to the Club..It was an impromptu pre party...

Some of U may wonder why I focus on the staff at the Clubs....Well they make it happen with out them there would be no NightLife....My self getting my start as a Buss Boy in many Clubs here in Toronto and Vancouver as well as Calgary..In the old days....They work hard..So if U are out and sea staffer at your local spot say HI! Say Thanks at the end of the night! They deserve it....:)

Isn't that a hot busboy! Manhunt T's look so good, they fit just right!
Ah the back side my favorite....
See what I mean about working hard, here he is at the end of the night. Look at that boy he is all wet from the hot night at DJ TK's birhtday bash last Friday....At 5ive Nightclub.....

what some others have said about the Manhunt.net World Tour....

Out In Buffalo

"TORONTO - Building on the huge success of last year's entertainment, MLTC Inc. Announced that it has secured the only Canadian date for DJ, remixer, producer Bill Bennett's Manhunt World Tour. The Manhunt World Tour is sponsored by and presented by Manhunt.net with Wet. He will be the sole DJ for the MLT Victory Ball on Saturday, Nov. 26, 2005. The Victory Ball is part of the MLT 2006 Competition.Returning to its traditional venue, the Kool Haus, which is part of the Guvernment Entertainment Complex on Queens Quay, the Mr. Leatherman Toronto Competition will feature an all-star lineup of entertainment. A trio of emcees will host the main event, The Mr. Leatherman Toronto 2006 Competition. Returning to the stage once again this year will be David Kloss, International Mr. Leather 1979. Joining him will be The Fetish Diva Midori and the comedienne Shann Carr.Opening the evening will be David Kloss and The Fetish Diva Midori. During the second half of the competition David will be joined by Shann Carr. Carr will also be the featured performer during the show with her stand up comedy act. With 20 years of gay stand up experience at her hip, Carr weaves a storytelling style that makes you feel like you're sitting in your living room with an eccentric friend who has your whole dinner party in stitches. Since 2000 she's been the sole lesbian entertainer on over 20 Atlantis cruises."That's right, 2000 gay men and me on a boat!" she said.She knows her gay men and they love her."My mom was worried sending me out to sea. She consoled herself by guessing that if there were problems, women and children would get off first.
I laughed and told her, 'On this trip I think twinkies and queens are first. Heck, they're expecting the dyke to fix the ship before it goes down!'"Following the MLT 2006 Competition, MLT will launch the Victory Ball with its pounding bass lines and soaring vocals to celebrate the victories of its title holders.
DJ Bill Bennett will bring his renowned mixes to raise the energy level of the several thousand guests expected to attend. Renowned for his music for men, Bill Bennett brings his current world tour to Toronto for its only Canadian stop Since 1989 MLT has donated more than $100,000 to its designated beneficiaries. In 2004, MLT raised and donated to the Canadian Lesbian and Gay Archives $11,000. For further information about MLT and its activities, visit http://mrlt.com. [9/30/05]"

Source of content(below)

"BIOGRAPHY - DJ BILL BENNETT As a struggling full-time college student Bill was seeking a job where he could work only on the weekends and still pay the bills. In 1999 he was hired as the Saturday night resident at the largest gay club to open in Detroit, Cobalt. His passion of dance music showed and the lines started wrapping around the building every Saturday night.

Fans from Toronto, Toledo, Columbus, Indianapolis and even Chicago would drive to Detroit for Bill's unique sounds. This was something that had never happened before. Detroit had never been known for its nightlife.Cobalt became known nationally for it's music, this immediately catapulted Bill to a national level. This Captured attention of the promoters from the infamous IML, which has hired Bill for four consecutive years, soon to be the fifth. Now Bill lives in Seattle and is one of the fastest rising DJs hitting the circuit. With a coveted residency at SBNY (aka Splash) in NYC he is finally getting the chance to play top events and clubs around the globe.

Along with the release of Bill??s new CD ??IGNITION?? he will be embarking on his IGNITION WORLD TOUR. This world tour kicks off this spring at Splash Bar NYC, hitting major US cities and several countries including Canada, Belgium, Japan and the Netherlands.Bill??s sound is a blend of progressive house and tribal beats with a touch of electronica and trance. His tour will also feature several of his remixes, which have become his signature sound. Visit Bill??s website and take a listen and see what??s happening with him."

Ok that's it for now...I'm still waiting on a delivery...Have to love UPS Not!.....but hey, the world today where would we be without 24 hour companies that can have a package from anywhere in the world in 24 hours (if it only worked that way all the time)...Weather permitting! OK winter in my way! ....LOL..still waiting..I can be very impatient..UPS where are U.....I'm outz....

See U out there!

Its a cold nasty day here in Toronto, dam cold! I've been waiting all day for a package, and its now looking like I will be waiting till tomorrow to get it....Love winter NOT......
I so want to have one of these fro my B Day next year..I'm learning how asap...
The other day when on my way to the Canfar office to pic up promo materials I decided to snap a few pics of me on the Subway....

Here I am waiting to get of the subway, I really don't like the subway, I have a stop below my building so its never far when I need to be swished of some where...Its funny how people are on the train all trying not to look at each other? I always smile and of course look at the cute boys!...This particular trip a boy was looking at me grabbing his crotch....I must say I had a few fantasies running through my head(bolth)......





So last Friday I was out to celebrate my friends birthdays DJ TK and DJ DJ Sumasian it also happen to be 5ive nightclub my local haunt.....

This coming up Friday November 25/05 DJ TK will be spinning.....


Here are some friends of mine chilling in the VIP area......................

Ah the Birthday Girl, what where is the Heineken? LOL see below for info about that......


Ahh and here is Screaming Gina this time in dress....Love her she's a local Celeb every once in while you will here this operatic scream from her...Love it...
The guy moving in for a lick is ASH, a host at 5ive and a local promoter....

why can't I get boys like that?...........Wait I do! HaHaha....Well sometimes! When I want to I allways get what I want..........

Hmmm should I bleach my hair again? Hmmm nope....Done that look to many times, plus I like my red pho Mohawk....

as per Nummm! this guy you can find at 5ive bartending what a hottie...When I took the pic of him I couldn't help but show my approval of him! Hence the smile on his face!

Here are the stars of the night! The DJS... Sumasian, Sydney Blu an TK
Sum giving TK a big birthday hug....

Ash giving some one the finger (inside joke)

And finally Sum showing his dancing moves....

this Friday come out and meet the crew we will all be there to celebrate Sydneys B-Day
November 25/05 DJ TK will be spinning for DJ Sydney Blu's Birthday Bash as she spun for TK's birthday the Friday before at 5ive Nightclub.....

If Your looking for something to do tonight check out this event.....DJ TKs favorite beer....Heineken

Heineken Launches ALL STAR Series
2 of Toronto??s Finest DJ??s Headline at Fez Batik

Toronto: Thursday, November 24, 2005: Kicking off at 10 pm, Heineken presents the launch of their new product, H2 with the first installment of the Heineken ALL STAR series at Fez Batik (129 Peter Street).

Having launched in Europe in 2002, Heineken??s newly branded sexy aluminum bottleearned it the Oscar de L??Emballage award for innovation by the French Institute for Packaging and Packing. Designed by the French designer Ora Ito, it was originally conceived as a limited-edition package for distribution in trendy clubs and pubs. A hit upon its launch in select Parisian clubs and pubs and in Dutch resort areas, the bottle was subsequently introduced into Italy, Hungary, select U.S. markets, and, now Canada. Aimed at a young upscale market, H2 is available only at exclusive venues in Toronto, namely Fez Batik. The Thursday night H2 launch is also the first in Heineken Music's ALL STAR SERIES, showcasing local homegrown Toronto DJ talent.

The first of the ALL STAR SERIES' features the hard and heavy tunes of 2 of Toronto??s finest home grown talents: DJ Sydney Blu and DJ:TK. ??We??re stoked to be able to play in a beautiful, exotic lounge like Fez Batik,?? said DJ:TK.

For those in say, Moscow, who can??t make the evening, the DJ sets will be live to air on manCandy Radio, Internet streaming to over 100 000 listeners across the world.

With good music, a great space, and a launch party, Thursday night never sounded better!

I had planned on being there but after waiting all day for a package that didn't come I'm in a mood, plus I'm up early in the morning to go out shopping for an Outfit for the Manhunt.net World Tour event I'm working this Saturday for Manhunt.net....Plus its time to get my hair done coloured and styled...and then a trip to the tanning salon....Glow whom I happen to rep in the village....

I really wanted to be at this event, Don't fret though! I will be there in spirt, How U may ask? Well I'm going to be listening to to it on Mancandy.ca....It's live to Air! How cool is that! I helped out with one of there first live to air events through sponorship by one of my clients this past summer....Should be fun take a listen.....

Early to bed for me....

I'm Outz

see You out there!

To view more pictures from the Birthday party look here My WEBSHOTS page

So what's up this week for me....1'st some pics of me from a few years ago in Seattle with the boy who I moved to Toronto with

Here I am in front of a semi truck...Who so graciously stopped for us when we broke down in our car at Bellingham....He saw a pride sticker on the car and gave us a ride to Seattle....LOL fun times..The entire weekend he was trying to get in my pants and my Bo's...
Here we are at some fab 24 Hour restaurant.....
Finnally here I am on the Amtrack train looking at the Pacific ocean at 6am on my way home back to Vancouver.....What a train trip! that is up the coast. I highly recomend it! its out a this world......the train trip that is.....

Well its a big week here in Toronto...Hey when isn't it a big week here....

Its time to step up and do some volunteer work for me....You may ask? what to do? Not me I am always on top of it! what needs to be done! In Toronto the largest city in Canada and one of the well lets just say foremost cities in the world! there is no shortage of very worthy organizations needing a bit of help....

I love this event and help out every year!

Bloor Street Entertains..

AS many of you know I volunteer my services to many HIV/Aids charities!, I'm very proud to do so and will continue to promote and further the cause to as many people as I can......Why because its still very very urgent....Being a gay man I'm on the front lines of it..In the trenches so to speak....

This is a battle worth fighting, if you can be there please do so.....

So When CANFAR calls me up asking for my help I'm there! Just like I'm there for PWA and ACT here in Toronto.....Let me say if there are any of you out there who need my help to forward your cause in the gay community here or around the world, I'm there just.....

tell me when and where.....

Next week on the 30 I will be at Bloor Street Entertains.....

Imagine a World...Without AIDS. Bloor Street Entertains is CANFAR's flagship fundraising event.Now in its ninth year, Bloor Street Entertains will once again bring together Toronto's most acclaimed chefs, florists and service professionals to create and host intimate dinners at over 20 prominent retail locations in the Yorkville area of Bloor Street including Williams-Sonoma, Tiffany, Escada, Cartier, Holt Renfrew, John de Jong Jewellery to name a few!

After dinner, guests will join The Party and celebrate in style while indulging in delectable cuisine, libations and our Silent and Live Auctions. This year the illustrious Party will be held in the classic atmosphere of Hart House at University of Toronto.

Our theme, 'Imagine A World... without AIDS' will be woven into the romantic and illusionary vision of our top notch designers and creators, transforming Hart House and your imagination into a place where we can all 'Imagine A World... without AIDS'.

For more information please call 416-361-6281 or email BSE@CANFAR.com

Its going to be a great time if you can afford to go get your buts there if not make a donation or volunteer they always need help at the office....Give them a call.....

Look back here for exclusive pics.......

If that's not enough this coming up weekend its the Manhunt.net world Tour...Being that I'm always involved with any Manhunt.net event I'll be there...
Its a great thing, a bit of info about it....Its all about Crystal Meth and its need to be stopped! Stopped from destroying our communities not only here in Toronto but around the World.....I'm very proud to be involved with this one....

DJ Bill Bennett says..

"What would I like to see? Crystal out of our society. If this drug doesn't eventually kill you , it will change who you are as a person. I have see the most handsome and caring men turn into horrible, ugly selfish people from long term usage of this drug."

I whole heartedly agree with this as U may know if your have read my past posts from a few years ago I am very much aware of what this drug can do to you....

The tour is here as part of Toronto's MLT weekend.....

"DJ Bill Bennett Headlines Leather Ball IXLeather Ball IX Saturday, August 16, 2003, 10:00 PM - 5:00 AM The Opera House, 735 Queen Street East, Toronto Advance Tickets: CDN$35 until August 10 CDN$40 after (more @ door if available) Available @ Priape Toronto/Montreal & Northbound Leather

One of North America's most popular and acclaimed leather dance events, MLT's Leather Ball, returns for it's ninth incarnation, Saturday, August 16, at The Opera House. DJ Bill Bennett (Chicago) commands the turntables following his brilliant performance at the inaugural MLT Leather Pride Ball last year (2002). Bennett has twice deejayed the infamous Black & Blue Closing Party of International Mr. Leather weekend in Chicago and was the headliner for the Leather Rites main event at IML 2003. Upcoming appearances include Belgium Pride and the Military Ball at Vancouver Pride."

It should be a great night look for me there at the Manhunt.net booth.......
and of course look back here for exclusive pics from an industry insider! pics you will not find any where else....

Some things worth note....
One of the tours sponsors is an organization from the USA

Life or Meth, a very very good thing, it is from the USA but very much relevant here as well...So look into it...And please if you think you have a friend who may be having a problem with it...DO NOT GIVE UP ON THEM THEY NEED YOU NOW MORE THAN EVER.....

As well its AIDS awareness week here in Canada.....

plus Word AIDS Day coming up soon.....

Its all so relevant please take a minute to look at things I find very important and close to my heart.....

That's it for now...I can't spend all day at my computer...LOL....Take care of U all and see you out there....

Hugz.....GCxPB

Well this brings me back to why I started this blog...
A fellow poz blogger has passed away......

No, Dirty Kitty...No!!
Thoughts on culture, art, sex, music and life from a poz gay black man living in Texas. Sometimes naughty, sometimes nice, but always...And I mean always..CLEAN IT OUT!!

To talk about HIV/AIDS....My health and how I'm dealing with it.. To share with others and let them know if they have this in common with me they are not alone.....Well this man, he in his way did the same....It just happened but there is a big group of us out there now who link to each other.....Brave enough to share, embrace each other in are pain and in our joys.....Its a wonderful thing and he was a part of it...He linked to my blog long ago....Its a brotherhood of gay men who share similar things if not only being poz and our dealings with it...Its a simple thing really but means so much to us all....I'm very proud to be a part of it...And I know he was to.....I will miss reading his funny stories about men and there lack of well clean buts....I love it he was a one of a kind.....

He will live on in our hearts and minds.....And in his blog....His legacy on line....

Much love and a big hugz.....Have a drink waiting for me..You....*mwah*

He will be missed.....

Well after a busy weekend I finally got some time to go over the many pics from the Madonna parties at Woody's and 5ive last week I've selected a few of the ones I liked to most.......Seen as I'm new at this I'm not sure what to do with the pics I don't want to use on the main site?. I will continue to put them on a alternate site so U can find your pictures .....Be warned some are not the best as I'm new at this........The ones here will be my favorites, friends of mine.....And for sure cute boys of course...That's a given!.......

As you will see it was a fun night. I give congratulates to everyone who put it together.....Including...Gay Guide Toronto, DJ/Producer CAJJMERE WRAY , 5ive NightClub , Woody's and anyone else involved at bolth venues....

....It has been talked about as being one of the best nights out in Toronto for some time...I've not seen such a buzz since the Fab 10 year anniversary party last year...

This is my Fab friend Shanna who is one of the busiest girls in Toronto. She is some one to look up to and admire.......You can find out all about her here....She is my preferred printer and gets all my congratulations on being an outstanding member of our community and an example for young lesbian women....And of course don't forget her darling other half DJ TK, Who's birthday bash I was at this past Friday and will have pics up soon for....
Here are some of the best Queens in the city You can find them at Zelda's or other local haunts on the strip here in Toronto....
This girl is cool, she is at 5ive every night helping us boys get it together be it drinks or help at the door ...She is one fab girl.....
Ahhh the girls again.....Oh so fabulous, To think I used to be scared of Queens..I now love em...They cheer me up when I'm down...Make me smile and hey what would a gay mans life be with out a Queen every once in while..You go Girls....
Looook at the costume I love seeing someone put effort into what they do...Good for You, Keep it up....
Ahhh MY bud Mitch.....Looking proud of his VIP Madonna pass...Now how come I didn't get one a them?..Hmmm didn't need one...Me wait in lines nope!....One phone call and I was in No problem..Speaking of lines my god it was way crazy, the lines where around the block....It reminded me of pride....
I didn't! Oh yes I did...Is That a girl standing up to pee...LOL Lena Over is her name shes at Zelda's every Saturday
Me getting a big kiss from DJ Sumasian one of the best promoters in the city who focuses on the Asian crowd at 5ive and has two very hot nights at 5ive every month....Check it out..He had asked me to come and see his night for some time..I did this past summer and had a great night...And the men Mmmmmm Num there are some hot hot boys at this guys events..... Miss Conception...What can I say I love this Gal...She hosted my COLT event and works with many events I'm involved with including the Tuesdays dinner drag show at Zelda's....I love the dinner drag scene it fun, its good times and with with Miss C your guaranteed a good time.....She is one funny gal who can do anything I swear.....
What does that mean again? Here is Mitchel Raphael the Editor of Fab here in Toronto, the mag I like to read and of course send everyone looking for when in need of info...That is a given there is no other......
MaHa a true gentleman and watch what you got on your booty when he is around as he is a Stylist, I'll never forget this past summer he and I and a couple others made sure are fav gal pall Ashley was taken care of on her birthday...He had cake and candles for her at 5ive..You don't find to many people out there who care enough to do that....I had flowers for her and called ahead to make sure the club set it out for her.....You can see him on many local TV shows....A local Celeb in the true meaning! A star in my eye!

Speaking of the Gal pal here she is surrounded by the media, and me of course....Not sure who the camera guy was but the video camera was from OUT TV Canada's Queer TV channel.....Look at her what a star......And not to forget there is an other local celeb Screaming Gina who I here reads my little spot on the web....how long I have no idea she won't tell me!....But welcome! As everyone is...HI babe....
Here is a pic I took early in the evening, This is Donnarama @ Woody's. A true performer in Toronto who is fabulous I love her she is one funny gal......
Cute boys dancing at 5ive....They reminded me of the days when I used to dance every night at raves in Vancouver...You know that hard core intense dancing where You let it go and just kick it...
The DJ!! We need more nights like this! Babe bring it on please..Let me know if you need my help.....We have met....You are hot...Super Idea on the party by the way! No one does it like U ..DJ/Producer CAJJMERE WRAY
One more pic of the boyz showing us how its done....Loved there moves....And that guy in the red Hustler shirt what a cutie, Hmm do I know him..I'm gonna find out he is super cute.....

Ok that's it for this pics.....

I'm in love with this whole picture blogging revolution here at the old blog......Feeling good, Happy and moving on with life.....It's all good and credit is due when credit is deserved and I'll be the first person to shout out when I see something worth talking about....And You all know it's still all about me on here right? Of course who wouldn't be able to figure that out..LOL

Speaking of the Blog, I have a Darling friend in Edmonton formally of Vancouver who is designing a LOGO for the site and my bizz....So look forward to seeing full on Branding of this site.....I love it my own LOGO! That is hot and means so much to me....Makes me smile from ear to ear....

I'm outz...

And if you see me out and about here in TO don't be shy say HI...Hey that rhymes....

xxooxxxX

Me outside Woody's...Looking good in front of the Madonna limo.....

What a night it was here in Toronto as we came out to celebrate Madonna.....

I've selected a few pics look here , if You don't see your pic look back as I'll be adding much more in the next few day's

See You out there.....

it's my bud DJ TK's birthday bash at 5ive tonight...Happy birthday baby.....

I'm outz

SO what's a gay man to do when he is in need of some rest and relaxation in the Toronto's gay Village...Well in my case its take a short walk over to Yorkville....A neighborhood infamous for being the IT place where all the hot in the know people go..Or in other words the people with money..aka Celebes and wana bees like me....LOL seriously though I was always aware of this place called

7 West cafe Toronto

Its well known in the gay community here as a place to go after hours for a fine bit a food and to chill with your fab friends......

Me being the ever so trend setting one of my bunch of compatriots I just had to check it out...I've been ever so eager for a new place....So I decided after being there with my Bud San for a going away party...He is now back in Mexico for the Winter to work on such fabulous events as Latin Fever....We had such a great time at his going away dinner that I decide with girl pal in tow to check it out again...This time with camera in hand....

The place is amazing...Its a mix of everyone, all nationalities and backgrounds..Including sexualities....I truly modern urban mix of sophisticated thinking peoples who are upwardly mobile, this is the cool bit..People with an artistic flare....I saw lesbians chatting about girls, hot young straight couples looking deep into each others eyes...A cute boy who was looking at me, just sitting there with a cupachinno reading a book....I love places like this it has an truly Canadian feel, in that all are welcome...I couldn't recommend the place more highly...At there site go to the third floor, then to the patio..You'll see where I was sitting! Back right side...Its sur real as U are surrounded by building...Urban living to the extreme.....I wouldn't have it any other way....

Oh and the food is great and the Martinis are fabulous....

And its open 24/7 how perfect is that for people of the Night like me....

I found this bit on the net about it......
It's surprising how many people hunger for pasta primavera or a bagel melt at 3 AM. Luckily, such cravings can be indulged at this 24-hour haven for the hip and hungry. Everything comes with a green salad, and every item is homemade. Soups like Moroccan lentil and vegetarian chili are delicious. The dinner-size sandwiches (grilled honey-and-herb chicken breast, for example) are huge. All three floors here are chic and trendy. AE, MC, V.

Here are some pics I took of the fun...I love my friends Ash..She is one crazy girl...
Here I am enjoying a Martini can't remember the name sex on the Patio I think...It was num numy....

My darling gal pal looking over the menu
the food look at all that food anti pasta and pita pizza's..
Me satisfied and on my third Martini by now at least....
Deep in conversation while looking at the cute boys all around me
Darlings drinking here fab martini and telling me she loves me! Who wouldn't Love me How couldn't she love me? Give me the love!
Me at the door like my new pants?
My dear looking so cool!
Oppps we had a few more Martinis.....
Looking happy at the door!
Why not one more then the door....LOL

I'd say a good night and good friends that's what life is all about? Oh yes dare I forget a good man to..Now if I could just find one!....If U think U could be that man..Insert you into the pics above....Then email me...I'm always looking for new friends...To chill with and explore my life.....Hints can be so suttle and at times so obvious....

Are we not loving Madonna's new CD......Tonight its Madonna crazy here in Toronto....Gay boys are gona be out in force to party to her tonight...At.....

Woody's and then 5ive see you all out there!

So its been a very nice relaxing weekend for me, other than the fact I am totally into a Man who right now I cannot see. Because he has a complicated situation at home. Its like having a fridge full of food, and you cannot eat any of it, You are starving but its all just out A reach...its locked up....You cannot find the key and are so so very wanting to get in....Strange analogy I know...but hey....You all have come to expect nothing other than that from me by now....

The guy is so tormented I wish I could reach in to his life and scoop him....Transport him to me, and that would be that.....Some men are very easy to get, not that I am the kind of guy who goes out looking...But this one has really got me, so many men have come and gone without me even batting an eye lash at them as they drift through my life ....In fact it seems easy to just be alone but we all do not want that....plus I keep learning day by day we have more and more in common....I can be a bitch and do not have problems meeting men...In fact I try to keep them away most times....Simple self protection mode in effect most times...

But he I do not think knows what he wants, So we are chatting....emailing..I'm waiting for him to figure out what he wants....I remember when I was his age 23 life was much more complicated, I so would have liked a man to want me for more than sex back then....To be given an opportunity to be myself....I feel like an older guy to a point that I think I can now from much learning from my own mistakes take that into a relationship and use it to grow and nurture and love..rather than let it hurt and tear down someone and me....Its all about love and respect...Trust...Love forever, friends forever....You can have both I think. but not one without the other....

Speaking of friends...here is a pic I really like of me....Its of a friend of mine who unfortunately I've lost touch with other than a purely casual basis..In fact he is one of the first guys I told I was poz...he helped me to sort out some very strong anger I had back then...I love him..He is a bit lost the past while I hope he finds his way back to us soon...Us being the circle of friends at the time a few years ago now....

Its late I can't sleep so seen as I'm sharing pics as of late I thought I would scan some old pics....This one is of me with a bunch of people at Woody's...I was in a Leather make over contest for the Folsom Fair North 2.....It was a pre promo gig for the Fair....The pic was scanned from a Montreal French mag Fugues....I can't remember the month but it was early last year 2004....

I was so nervous it being my first time on the stage at Woody's.....I didn't win.....The real lady in the pic won seen as it was a shock make over so to speak she came in dressed like a school teacher and then came out as a dominatric looking diva....I was in a dress shirt and jeans.......The hat I had on was a killer as it was to small and made my head feel like it was going to explode.....

I had a great time and for months after I was approached by guys asking me if I was that guy in the contest.....A true one in a life time event....

It was called Cuir Eye for the Trendy Guy....

Im the one second from the left....I couldn't help most of the time looking down at the guy in front of me, what a cute but on a hot guy...

You will see next to me a Local Celeb other than me(LOL) Enza Anderson Supermodel....It was funny when we where at Priape for the fitting the day before I happen to notice she had breasts...I kind a looked shocked I guess when I commented to her about them, seen as we had worked on Pride a few years on the fundraising committee we know each other...I got a look like don't ask...I didn't bring it up again....They look good....That's if you like boobies....

Here is a pic of me and her at a Pride Volunteer appreciation party a few years back at a club called Buddies.....


Never dull moments in this boys life....

So I am a bit shocked at how busy the blog is getting....Very happy, Welcome to all the new friends from around the world....

Ok I'm of to bed....

Look for many new pics of me and my going ons....

including all my friends and more....

Well if you all think back you will remember last year when I did the international premiere party for Buckleroos It was a lot of fun working With COLT.....

In the pic you see Zack Spears, Owen Hawk, Me & Dean Phoenix.

The day and evening was a smash hit, that ended at a big fetish party, I had them all on the VIP guest list...Owen Hawk ran around naked....I by this point was exhausted...I did my hello's and was on the shuttle, home for 6am.

On a side note when I was at there hotel to meet them the day before, Zack Spears said to me...Something like WOW your cute, I expected an old man You are young and sexy.

Well something to that point.....I was very flattered........

I need some advice about templates?

I want to take this pic (above) and use it as my background for the blog! Anyone who can help me please e mail me or post a comment....

Plus Comments wanted on my new efforts at the site...Let me know what you all think!

Also Links, if you want to link to my site just click on the Bloglinker URL at the bottom of my links to the right, your link will be added to my site.....

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Peace and love to you all....

I'm outz....

A pic I found of my self on the RECON site from an event this summer Folsom Fair North III I promoted, the pic was taken at the Agitator event the main party of the Fair. I also hosted a booth for one of my clients at the fair the next day....

Every year I'm more involved with this event next year should be bigger and better! I'm sure of that.....

What do you think? Like my hairy chest?

It was a hot sticky few days here last summer we where all very hot, it was 40c during the day and humid.....
One perk in this job is I get to hire Hot men like this to help me....
He is a GO-GO boy I hire sometimes, All day long doing what ever I tell Him...
He dances at a gay strip club in Montreal if you want to get a closer look....

This year it was all work and no play, I love the Guys that put on the Fair, they have treated me with nothing but the utmost respect and compassion....

Through these guys I've networked and gained in my career ten fold I Thank them from the bottom of my heart.....Big hugz to You Dean And John a tribute to you!

I cant wait I'm on a Madonna kick.....I want her so bad!..That is I want to see her so bad Live....When she was here in Toronto for her last tour I couldn't go! Was busy.....I so hope she comes this time....She had three sold out concerts here in Toronto I believe....I bet she could sell out 6 if she wanted.....

Speaking of Madonna My friends over at 5ive NightClub here in Toronto are doing a Madonna Thon night soon.....November 16th

I will be there for sure to take pics and listen to one of my favorite DJS,DJ/Producer CAJJMERE WRAY who I plan on doing a night here in Toronto soon, with him spinning!

5ive NightClub has supported me over the years, I'm involved there of and on through my Bizz with Clients of mine, sponsoring there events...

Look for me to be posting more events soon that I'm involved with at other clubs Like FLY NIGHTCLUB I'm happy to be moving into Fly as a rep for one of my major clients from the USA.

And Like I said look for info on up coming event here as I'm in the know! Like this bit of Info -> The rumored new It's a Boys Life.....You found out about it here first! Yes there is going to be a revival of the Fab night formerly at IT....The first event is scheduled for December. The first event will be 'itsaboyslife' reunion. I will be there more than likely I'm working on my involvement this week...More to come asap....

Update its now looking like this event will be in January.....

Look Up at the Blog description...I've changed it to more reflect what I am now,
No longer bitter about the way I was dealt my cards when coming out as a gay man...I've accepted my being POZ and my other problems that where/are a part of my life when I started the Blog several years ago! They are far from my only concerns now....I'm comfortable more and more in my own skin....Feeling good accepting my fate, but not that its set in stone...Life is what you make it! I am growing as a man faster and faster, leaving others behind in the dust..No time for it any more you are with me or you are just going to be left behind....OK got it? Good...

Now on to the take over.....LOL

Look at those lips..opps sorry I'm in love with my lips..and thats OK

look at my lips! Don't they look big and luscious? Something you would want to keep....I think so, there very good for kissing...Trust me!
I'm playing around with photo editing...

I'm the lips on the right I don't know who the other guy is!

As usual I'm busy spreading my lips all about town....

One day I will start to remember there names? Ahh why bother....

That way its easier to just move on when you see them, dam can't remember his name..Next!


Another thing on my mind is Men, well looks of men...You see I'm always being told I should have a more attractive boyfriend or you shouldn't be with him you could do better than him....Well sometimes I know this other times I like the guy for other reasons, sometimes its a combination of certain characteristics and looks..Like blue eyes, I love a guy with blue eyes and dark hair....The one I've talked with below is one in fact who falls into this situation...I think we all have some attractive traits and some no so...I must admit there are some men who are just nasty...But they are far and few between...More often they are nasty because they let them selves go....I have in the past and trust me I can be down right nasty...
An example would be like a few weeks ago after an all night sex fest at Steam Works in the sling room...I was in a cab and home before anyone saw me I was nasty....But thank Goodness that's something temporary...I feel bad for men who are just nasty all the time...Ok I'm getting mean here but I'm in a mood I tell you...Some men are just a waste of space and that's that..Enough said!

Rant over

But serious I'm feeling better about the latest round with this guy, I now feel angry and resentful, I was asked can we be pal's...Hmmm I wonder how that happens when one of us was just cut of thrown away...How do I switch my feelings to Pall Buddy...I don't think its that easy, I've never been one to be friends with exs and never been dumped before so this is all new for me? I think its just a big distraction I don't need...Alone forever is how I feel....Simple no trouble...Casual sex and that's that...(not really but its so easy that way..I want love I want to be with someone who wants m, I want to wake up next to a man who I love...I want to have that man who I give everything I am to...Is that to much to ask?

In other news I'm getting back to being busy.....very much thinking about travel for the winter....Its after halloween and the fall winter scene is starting to buzz here in Toronto...Could it be a boy's life this winter again? You all here(Toronto) would know what that means....more to come lots more....

Let me know about the pics and I'll start putting more up....

Here is a pic I've been wanting to share for some time..As you will see I'm a bit whiter looking, the benefits of being a rep for a Tanning salon are evident in the last pic I posted....Not the best pic of me but I wanted to share it none the less

The pic is of Simone Denny of (Love Inc) and you all know her now as the theme music of Queer eye....Me in the middle and a friend of Mine Jaime Crouch from Thunderstar present who helped me with My Colt Studio event last year here in Toronto...Colt Studio Group & Buckshot Productions International Release Party of "BuckleRoos" October 23, 2004

I love her and remember her fondly from the old days specifically songs like Your a Super Star and Broken Bones...the later being a theme song of mine for several years when I was a Busser in several gay clubs in Vancouver in the 90's....Wow have times changed....

This is as much for you as me as I know you will read this, please know this is where I sort out my life, I love you and care about you! C____

So about matters of the heart, So I need some advice from my readers....I've met this guy and now twice he has come into my life and then left for several reasons a couple of them being...he thinks says he is in love with another guy and me, lives with the other guy...Has a life with him that is beyond what I would call un healthy.(some reasons being drug use and abuse from aforementioned boyfriend/roommate depending on how things are and if the boyfriend decides he wants him rather than a previous live in boyfriend...next reason has never been with a guy who is poz and verbally berated by the other guy about it....told he is a room-mate then when he is brave enough to try and have a life i.e. with me we spend time together he realises hey maybe I still want him...a guy from what I see he has no respect for, who in a whim or mood will turn on him humiliating him with out consideration for his feelings..very selfish...Not to mention name calling of me who he doesn't know...This is just a bit of the complicated set of circumstances....

He says he loves us both, when times are bad the past month or two he is calling me, then the ex/on of boyfriend room-mate decides he is not to be doing what he does and threatens him to be kicked out, fully knowing he will run back to him because he is so scared of being homeless...its a vicious circle that I if I had known what I was getting into would have been apprehensive to say the least to get involved with....But I am now

The other part is the time we spend together has been great, there is something about him I'm gravitated to, something pulls me in..there are a few things I've figured out so far, One being the look in his eyes when we are together...the way he looks at me...The fact we have been texting and emailing each other for weeks and developing a bond...the fact he wants me I know he does and I want him he knows this...I've made it way to clear....

So what to do, you know the saying set him free and if he loves you he will come back...Well I did one time and he came back....Only to be yanked away from me under duress...hardship and pain, being beat and struck down left shattered and torn by someone who he says to me he still loves while he is in my arms only the day before professing his love for me, that he has many, many times....Me not so many times until this past few days did I let him know how I felt...well one time..I was scared he would run of again...I was right, I can only now show my convictions, As you all know on here I'm a very passionate person, strong and know what I want most times...I've way to many times just given up or let people wander out of my life either because I'm self doubting my self or there intensions or both...Its not that simple really....

When It comes to matters of the heart I've seen my share of heart ach, this guy needs me I know he does, If you have been reading this blog since the beginning you will know about my past relationships, how I was held back and used and abused, both the victim and the victimiser...Something I have learned so much from and want to share point infact the birth of this blog being because of very similar feelings and emotions life!

Ok SO there is lots to think about, simply speaking what is it all about, Love, happiness, taking risks, jumping in head first, with out risks you will never get what you want....

Read between the lines....not to much though

Songs I'm listening to as of late...

Whitney Houston - It's Not Right But It's OK (Thunderpuss Club Mix)
Waiting For Tonight (Tecno Club Mix)
Waves Of Luv (The Disco Boys Full Vocal)
Keep On Moving (Ultimix) Soul II Soul
Wanna Be An Angel (Art Of Trance vs dba remix)Matt Darey Pres Tekara Feat Xa
Hung Up (SDP's Extended Dub)Madonna, Confessions On A Dancefloor
California Dreamin' (Tek House Single)Royal Gigolos, remix heaven 2005

Well I'm not in the mood to post the past few days.....been busy with a so called relationship.....On and of and on and now of again....

I don't understand how some men can play with others emotions....Just when I was going to let him in again...I'm told its over again...the thing is he has a live in boyfriend who is the on and of again room mate...I don't know, he hits him, I learned last night, tells him to get out, the poor guy is trapped with someone who calls him names and verbally abuses him as well....won't let him move on....I was there at one time in my life as well....So scared to move on that I couldn't make it in my life as well....after a year or so I left after it was so bad we both where hurting each other constantly....

The thing is the other night we actually finally had sex real intimate sex....I made love with him, and it was great to actually have feelings for someone while having sex it was there...Something that hasn't been there for a long time....

He was ok with me being poz as well, or I think trying to....I am hurt and left alone feeling used and torn apart....He reads this so will see this...the hurtful thing or that really bothers me is this is the second time now he has done this to me......I am done with men or at least relationships....who needs the pain, I don't I screw up enough in this fucked up world that I don't need anyone else making me sit home alone feeling like a truck just hit me....

I should thank him for reminding me that some guys deserve each other, and I think these two do, If you think so little about your self you deserve what you get...Its sad I thought I had problems, Its almost like a game that he doesn't know he is playing in.....I'm not going to be a pawn in this, if he wants him he can have him....

I don't know how someone can throw around the word love so easy either...I've been warned that some guys are just bad but I refuse to give up and become bitter....its hard but I'm not there yet....

The truth be told I've fallen for him...This one needs me and I need him! I'll do what it takes....I've given up on so many things in my life and he is not one I'm willing to.....The good and the bad I'll take it all, I've been through so much in my life and need to start fighting for what I want, and I want him in my life!

I've waited this long a few more months is not a long time!.......

You see we developed a relationship over text messaging and email after we met, he has touched me in ways others have never before....He has been reading this blog so knows more about me than any other man in my life has so far....He is scared I know I've been there.....He has had to do some awful things this past few years to survive, he shouldn't have to....and I intend to make sure he knows that I will be here no matter what, just as long as I know what he is telling me is true.....

After I posted this we talked I think he now knows I'm serious, I so wished I could have just let him stay with me the other night...told him stay here with me...Your home....but I'm in the middle of a two month wait till my new apartment! sleeping in a living room...If I have to I'll risk everything....Its been a while since a man brought me to tears, to long. That is when I new how I really felt for sure....100%